cheers

apologies for the rather dull quality of the photo, it's a bad light day.i love these two together. the magic that is mav and wendy! mav's cheers card was one of the first things i received from her. the feeling is always the same when i see something from her in my mailbox...always the first to opened, touched, admired, always brings a smile! can't wait for what's next, mav! the painting was a gift from the green girl a few months ago. a magical gift from such a beautiful soul! thank you friend! as a pair, these pieces have suited all manner of moods! i love seeing them every day.

i've given the studio a bit of a fresh start. there's new inspiration on the wires, and things have been moved around a bit to achieve a more efficient layout. nothing like a fresh start to improve perspective. my smile and humor have returned!

thanks to all of you who left such kind words on my last post. i will be getting back to as many of you as possible this week.

inspiring me on flickr:
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Overexposed on the Columbia
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sky
ben smile 3wks
Trumpeter swans in flight, Gallup Park (IV)
us

hugs, all around!

lost

january, i wish i could start you over. somehow i would find a way to not feel so sad, more grateful, less lonely. the snow i have been longing for is finally here, but now seems to only punctuate my dark mood, rather than illuminate. i have been stuck for weeks. my to-do list has become a towering intimidation. how did i slip so quickly into the abyss that is my couch, and far too many cups of tea? such silliness, when i have the presence of mind to be semi-rational...an all too rare occasion these days. but i am trying, and i have made it this far. a post, the first in 50 days.

too much has been stirring in me to leave it all here. but the heart of it all is i miss my mom. it's next to impossible to tuck away the past, the memories and the possibilities, and begin from scratch. but i find myself without choice. here i am: my life, my heart's map, it's reference points all shifting. the new year and it's requisite resolutions and new-found productivity leave me stumped. where has the time gone? i'm looking around in the dark with a lethargic urgency, trying to find a new map i want to somehow manage to splice to the old. i have not acquired the tools for this place i'm in. i'm lost. but, thankfully, i'm not without hope. i am here, after all.

this month was, and is still to be the month to finish the katrina quilt. it will be going up for auction next month. i began this project 16 months ago. i am sometimes filled with disappointment in myself for not having completed it yet. i tell myself to go easy, had i known what the coming months had in store, i would not have taken on such an enormous project. i try to steer my thoughts to all of you who have sent me love in the form of a square, and away from the loss of so many. but it can't be helped. to work on this quilt means to feel it. and so i will.

love to all of you, this saturday. it's good to be back.